Baby?

I think one of the hardest things while preparing for treatment has been going to the fertility doctor. So maybe I am behind everyone, but I had not given children a huge thought. I mean I figured I would have them one day, but I was shooting for early to mid 30's before.  When someone tells you, hey chemo has a 50% chance of making you infertile. Oh and BTW if you want to freeze your eggs to help ensure a better chance of having a child, it is going to cost you a butt load on top of all the medical bills you already have. The cherry on top is if you ever want to use them you have to pay every year to keep them frozen and then another nice chunk to get them fertilized and back inside you. 

The other option to help increase my chances of being fertile is to take a shot call depo lupron.  This would basically send me into basic menopause during chemo to help protect my eggs.  Research has shown this shot could increase my chance by 20% to have children. Sounds good right. Well my MD did not sound so sure.

This has been one of the most emotional decisions for me. So what do you do? Do you take out a loan and freeze your eggs? Do you take your chances and do the shot? Can you do both options?

After a lot of back and forth, I decided to freeze my eggs. I mean I would be kicking myself down the road if I do end up infertile and I did not try everything possible to have my own child. I think the two people who really helped me decide to freeze my eggs was my Aunt Karyn and Uncle Jerry. This is my dad's twin brother and his wife, which I would consider them my second parents. They have always spoiled my sister and I to death. They are seriously the sweetest and most loving people I have ever met. I know I have to say they have not been dealt the best hand, but you would never know it by speaking to them. I was talking to them the other day and they told me if they would have had the chance to freeze eggs the definitely would have. My aunt is a very brittle type one diabetic (she wasn't diagnosed with diabetes until she had a back surgery in her 30's which started the DM).  My aunt and uncle never had human children and I say this because they have babies in the shape of dogs and cats. I wish I could do more than just verbally thank them.

So, now it is a waiting game to get everything set up to freeze my eggs and hopefully get chemo scheduled ASAP after. I wish I had an EASY button.

My puppy Knox!!! Kind of like a baby!